Well, most likely days which tend to overwork me. Or try it at least. Today's test in Legal Environment of a Business was pretty easy because I have been writing it with my classmates :) So I reached 100%, no mistakes. I was really very happy it was done because studying for this test ate up all of my time prepared for writing case study for Business Finance, which is terribly important in this subject. And because idiots in my Uni are thinking we have too much of a free time, they added another test in Statistics, which is scaring me to death.
It's completely fucked up. I'm tired, but still have to do my schoolwork, otherwise completing my bachelor degree would be almost impossible in time. And that's the thing I'm not willing to accept no matter what.
And as I'm sitting in my bed with my notebook trying to relax, my best friend had an urge to inform me how well is going her weekend out of my reach. Well, I tried to be sympathetic to her joy of learning about DDR, but it completely spoiled my mood. It's because we were looking at it together, thinking it can be fun and that was on cons and there were many people looking. I know, she doesn't like to act in front of people, so I didn't pressure her about it even though I thought we could try it together. And here, she's reporting me how wonderful it is, how much fun and that I have to try it too. Of course I'm still incredibly jealous person as usual, so I stabbed pretty strongly. I have to admit, she realized quickly, how harsh it sounded, but it didn't do anything to soothe my anger. My choleric nature is a bit too much sometimes, I guess. Still, it's mix of anger and sadness, 'cause this should have been our experience, not with someone else.
Anyway I had to get it out. Sorry for another babble about my private problems.
- Mood:
sad
this is beginning of my first attempt to write a fic. Please be gentle with me :)
Okay, I think the introductions of main characters would be good for a start, because they both are OC. Lewis Orwell is mine and William O´Darwen was created by
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ae_werin Thank you, darling, for him and for your suggestions while control-reading this piece:)So, here we go XD
( First one is Lewis Orwell. )
- Mood:
nervous - Music:BEP - I gotta feeling
So, maybe I should write about things that made me happy, in those three days =)
On Wednesday, there was nothing. Like really nothing.
On Thursday, I was sitting on totally boring lesson from Direct Taxes, which interests me, but I was completely dead. A there was my former classmate from first semester (right now it´s our fifth one) and she looked at me a said: "Wow, you have longer hair than I remember. It looks good on you." I said I was just too lazy to visit my hairdresser, but she told me to keep it this way. So of course I was secretly very happy to receive a compliment like this one =)
On Friday, so today, I´m happy to be at home. And eat some good food, not just student diet XD
Well, it´s end of this meme. It certainly was very interesting experience and I enjoyed writing this even though I was late on some days. And I´m glad
ae_werin included me in this =) Thanks honey :-*- Location:at home
- Mood:
happy - Music:Beyonce - Halo
I thought today was very good day because I was very happy and satisfied, but now I'm pissed off. Mainly on myself which makes things worse. Well, I had to return my shoes to the shop because they broke. Fortunately, they gave me back my money for them so I could to buy a new pair of other shoes. I was successful, got even shopping groceries done and with this on my mind I got home. I was looking towards the evening, so I could share this with my best friend and chat about everything else when everything fucked up.
I knew, she will come, be online, but all I got was shitty note in mail about some girl, I have never heard of, like they are best friends because they are going to celebrate her birthday. Well, fuck the nice day so quickly.
I know I'm exaggerating, but I can't help myself. I know I like her too much, I know I'm jealous too much, but I also know I want her only for myself. This relationship is hurting me in these times too much for too long, because it's not first. She probably doesn't see it and I'm not willing to tell her. I would look like a cry baby and of course I don't want that. It's vicious circle, but I don't see a way to break it.
At least I have new pair of shoes and that's the thing that made me happy the last but one day of this meme =)
- Location:Czech Republic, Brno
- Mood:
frustrated - Music:none
Today I had to take a train to get in my school town and there was big delay because of some other train from opposite direction so we had to wait about 45 minutes in one station. But paradoxically it made me happy. I was taking this train with my friend and we haven´t seen each other for quite a long time so this added time was very good. We decided to go to the pub this week and also ask some of our friends to go bowling or play pool together.
This was definitely my best delay XD
- Location:my bed, still alone
- Mood:
satisfied - Music:Katherine - Ayo technology
Hello, so it's already 5th day. The time sure run very fast. I'm still ill, maybe a little better so I can say it's thing that made me happy today. At least I can breathe little bit more easily though it's not good enough yet =)
Well, I continued reading my book and I was laughing like a madwoman at some parts of story and my brother just asked me "You sure you alright?" I just blinked at him and said: "Why?" and he waved his hand at me like Omg, my sister is already that bad in her head! He certainly loves me, my younger brother XD
I'm glad he's at least funny. Sometimes XD
Yay for first film X-Men, because I´m watching it now =D
- Location:my bed, as ussual
- Mood:
amused
So, I decided I´ll mention watching TV this evening. There is this local mutation of American Pop Idol and I fell in love with voice of one young man. He sounded like younger Tom Jones XD and his version of Supreme from Robbie Williams was perfect! www.youtube.com/watch
Well, that was probably only this one thing that made me happy today =)
- Location:my bed
- Mood:
tired
I started reading that new book I bought XD And returned to my home. Well, I was almost dead by that point of time, but vision of proper meal was really really stimulating! XD *dreaming about meat and meat and meat XD*
- Location:my bed and mountain of used tissues
- Mood: tired
- Music:none
But today a big dog´s head poked from behind the door. I was just praying he doesn´t want to eat me or something but he merely sniffed me, decided I belong to his house and wanted to be petted. And he wanted good long petting and didn´t let me take my shoes off until he was satisfied. Well, he´s almost to my waist so some moving him aside is really impossible. And he´s still puppy XD
So I´m very happy I survived the first encounter with this dog alone =D
- Mood:
chipper
ae_werin 1. Post about something that made you happy today even if it's just a small thing.
2. Do this everyday for eight days without fail.
3. Tag eight of your friends to do the same. I tag:
1on31y24, donnadio, f_mystic, portisheart, jessy_suki, kinziek, tsuki_te_suiren, nemesia23Well, today was a second day of new semester. Right now I'm still pissed off as hell because of one little piece of shit, but today I bought a new book I already knew and love. And I watched X-Men Origins for about fifth time. Oooh, I love Hugh Jackman and his muscles and leather jacket XD
- Location:my bed but alone
- Mood:
angry - Music:D´espairs Ray - Mirror
( Under cut are some nonsenses but also quite serious question which is important to me in the end. Would you check at least the end? )
- Mood:
curious - Music:Lady GaGa - Just Dance [Ft. Colby Odonis]
| You Need Freedom |
 Your confidence and self-esteem comes from being independent. It's very important that no one tells you what to do. You don't do well with rules, responsibilities, or commitment. You're not flaky, but you do need flexibility. You may not always exercise your freedom, but you need to know it's there. Just feeling constrained constrains you. |
Yes, yes, yes! That´s it! That´s the reason, why I fight with my mom when she tels me what to do, how and when. I hate it!
- Mood: satisfied
| You Are a Maverick |
 Bright but unbridled, you tend to seek out wild experiences over new ideas. People are frustrated by your great potential, but you love your unconventional life. You're a heartbreaker. People get attached to you, and then you're gone. Your strength: Your thirst for adventure Your weakness: Not taking time for slow pleasures Your power color: Hot pink Your power symbol: Figure eight Your power month: March |
- Location:Czech Republic
- Mood: amused
Broken
Have you ever felt like you had to do something really terrible in past life to deserve such a punishment? Yeah, I feel it too often.
( You really don´t have to read this. There´s only confession of broken girl, nothing interesting. I just had to get it out. )
- Mood:
disappointed - Music:deafening silence
| You Are a Black Coffee |
 At your worst, you are: grumpy and stressed You drink coffee when: you can get your hands on it Your caffeine addiction level: high |
- Location:my bed
- Mood:
sleepy - Music:Red - Already over
| You Are a Flawless Beauty! |
 You're the kind of woman a man would launch a thousand ships for It's hard for anyone to beat you in the beauty department But remember, it's okay to show a flaw or too - you've got plenty to spare |
Okay, I admit my defeat...this horrible evil setting is killing me!!! And I´m not kidding.
My situation is here -> I tried to make mood theme of Akihito or FeiLong...I uploaded pics on my account on one website and tried, if these pics are availible...of course, this was working very well. Then I tried to paste URL where I was supposed to in category of editing mood themes. Then, after all work, I saved changes and when I tried to acces this theme, I wasn´t working, ´cos system was saying "There are no pics".
Okay, there have to be some kind of mistake on my part, but I don´t know where so I could fix it...does anyone know what to do?
Thanks for advices *humbly bowing her head*
- Location:my bed
- Mood:
exhausted - Music:Guano Apes - Break the line
- Location:my bed
- Mood:
lazy - Music:none
there is special occasion and that´s why I´m posting this.
natasja92 posted very interesting 33 questions. Even tough they aren´t hers own, it doesn´t matter to me, I´ll be good friend and answer them. She asked for it really nicely, you know :D Guys, I´m asking you to do the same for me. I´m curious as hell, so you´ll definitely satisfy me :D1. Can you cook - yeah, some dishes are really yummy...the rest I haven´t tried yet
2. What was your dream growing up - oh, I wanted to be shopkeeper
3. What talent do you wish you had - I really wish to be able to play piano
4. Favourite place - my bed :D
5. Favourite vegetable - red and yellow pepper
6. What was the last book you read - Old man and the sea - still reading, it´s too boring for me, but my English teacher want us to read something in English..too bad good porn isn´t presentable enough
7. What zodiac sign are you - Gemini :)
8. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings - hell no, needlles are scaring me to death
9. Worst Habit - my fingers need to do something all the time
10. Do we know each other outside of lj - unfortunately no - different country
11. What is your favourite sport - I like swimming - hot men in speedos :drool:
12. Negative or Optimistic attitude - both :D mostly optimistic
13. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me - we could be debating about our favourite couples :D
14. Worst thing to ever happen to you - car accident - it´s still scaring me to drive with someone else, being the one with steering wheel in my hands is okay
15. Tell me one weird fact about you - there is one thing, some of my fingers are crooked :D it´ s not very obvious but it´s weird :D
16. Do you have any pets - once I would like to have a cat :-)
17. Do you know how to do the Macarena - yeah, lets rock! :D
18. What time is it where you are now - right now is 21:21 lucky you :D
19. Do you think clowns are cute or scary - definitely scary
20. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be - my ass could be firmer :D (excuse for too lazy nature)
21. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience - oh, crime partner is much cooler :D
22. What colour eyes do you have - blue
23. Ever been arrested - not yet and I´m not planning it
24. Bottle or Draft - draft
25. If you won $10,000 dollars today, what would you do with it - make good time with my friend and buy a new pair of jeans :D
26. What kind of bubble gum do you prefer to chew - something mentol - better breath :D
27. What 's your favourite bar to hang at - not really, I would rather go to drink coffee
28. Do you believe in ghosts - no, I would have to see one to believe in them
29. Favourite thing to do in your spare time - reading lots of porn :D
30. Do you swear a lot - sometimes a lot, especcialy when I´m very angry - not controlling vocabulary
31. Biggest pet peeve - stupid people are making me mad
32. In one word, how would you describe yourself - friendly
33. Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you - of course!
Go and copy questions here ---> </span>natasja92.livejournal.com/12187.html and answer them for me and for her too, thanks!
- Location:bed
- Mood: amused
- Music:Saving Abel - Addicted
first thing of my journal will be about that difficult situation of mine %)
I have to thank to jessy suki and tigermalt. You are my saviors, no kidding. I took your advices and acted. It was hard, it is very un-normal these days, but it helped. We sat, we talked and that was it. Just end.
The flat isn´t that big so he can avoid me for real, but I can see it in the way we greet each other. I´m not sure others noticed it too, but I´m not digging in it. He barely says "Good morning" when we meet in the kitchen. I admit, it feels very good to be without unwanted attention, but it makes me quit sad because it feels like lost friend. Maybe it´s not just feeling, ´cos it´s reality.
Am I ungrateful when I want us to be friends just like we used to be? I understand, it´s hard for him, but that´s the way I am. Every one of my almost lovers is now my friend. It´s like those intimate moments between us were for good. We understand each other and are close friends. It´s dangerous, because some times are quit heated and there is the need to repeat things that were starters of our relationship, hehe =D but we want it this way, so it´s okay =)
I hope, one day he will be able to talk to me like we used to. I would like that very much, ´cos I think it´s too troublesome to pretend something, to avoid other´s eyes, to act like the other isn ´t in the room. I don´t like that, it´s too complicated.
Anyway, summer semestr begun 2 weeks ago and I ´m already tired. I must be really soft, that´s horrible =D I´m skipping some classes, because I´m trying to sleep more but it just doesn´t work, ugrrrr. There are also some assignments for school I need to work on and it takes my free time which irritates me. I just need my free time only for me, it´s normal, isn´t it? And what´s the worst, I´m terribly lazy from nature. If my death sin wasn´t wrath, it surely would be sloth. There is nothing like conscience in me, so I don´t care about it. That really cynical side of me must be very hard to stand for others. Even my mother told me I´m too heartless, almost cruel. That hurt, you can imagine, hearing this from own mother...very unpleasant. There are many things my parents don´t get right about me. This is one of them. And it makes me feel lonely.
Enough of depressing stuff, there is one thing I would like to know. I have some mood theme I would like to use. It´s not my own. Is there some way to use it without need to make mood theme by "creating" it in profile? =) I reeeeeeally want to use mood theme with Feilong (love his hair and face) but I need to know, if there is some shortcut =D
Be well friends, Lenka
- Location:bed
- Mood: tired
- Music:Hikaru Utada - Passion
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