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Pink phantom!

Sun, 03 Jan 2010 19:07:38 GMT

Hello,

this is special annoying journal! XD Because I'm still pissed at my friend and she is still pissed at me (if you couldn't guessed we had quite a big fight, more like epic monstrous fight) so I can't tell her like usually, so you are stuck with me now XD
Anyway, you don't need to read this, it's just my need to vent

So, there was pink phantom! I swear, no kidding. That girl must have been blind, otherwise I don't understand. Or that bright pink blinded her, which happened to me and I wasn't able to continue reading my notes for exam. It was shame, because she was rather pretty XD Well, I have felt like Alice in Wonderland, but not in Tim Burton's funny and charming way, but totally in creepy way. Have you seen the trailer for Burton's Alice in Wonderland? I'm soooo going to see that film :D
And when I moved to another train (have to take two), there was white phantom. Well, no shit. You know how Ichigo´s hollow is able to make white look rather sexy (at least for me XD), but this was really creepy too. And white is absolutely impractical colour for travelling, another thing I didn't understand today.
I thought very naively, these two phantoms were enough. Yeah, you guessed right, they weren't. No more phantoms, more idiotic people. How I hate sniffing seniors %) God, I almost gagged, so earplug-headphones were in action damn fast, volume turned up too. And there was that stupid man, who was talking to the phone commenting on girls in the public bus. I just thought - What the fuck?! Lucky to get out on my stop.

So I ended up in my room with a cup of coffee and some food damn tired. Exams started not too long ago and I'm already annoyed. Well, I need to continue reading that damned notes for exam in Statistics. See you soon :)

PS: I know I dind´t send any New Year journal, so I just wish you to be happy and achieve whatever is important to you in this year :)

The Introductions, part 2

Sun, 20 Dec 2009 14:16:08 GMT

Hello,
I'm very sorry it took so long :-( This part was long written, but I haven't had time to post it. Technically I shouldn't be doing it now either (supposed to study for exam on Tuesday), but creator of this character ae_werin is bugging me very intensively - love you too, darling - so I decided to do it :-)
Anyway, this isn't beta-ed so it's possible to be slightly edited later, for now bear with grammar mistakes or typos, if you see any of them :-)

This one looks like a good boy. Harmless and obedient, but as you can imagine, the truth is little bit different. Still student, but currently working for Lewis as his assistant, friendly and pleasant but aggressive when things aren't according his plan or liking.
When he was a child he used to feel lonely. Both parents were working, still are, and he often was with their cook. Well, at least he cooks very well. And Lewis loves it when Will is dancing around the kitchen in the apron. Only apron.
He loves animals even now and is owner of turtle. As a little boy, he had budgie and rabbit, but both had died in unfortunate incidents and William was wounded by it.
William is a real adrenaline freak. Be it bungee, sky diving or something else he would do it and enjoy it.
He was dating girls all his life and there was only one man before Lewis in the past, the photographer Adrien Law. When Will was twenty, he was scouted by model agency and took some photos with Adrien for fashion brand OneWay. They proceed to kissing and some touching, so it was Lewis who took him for the first time. William then preferred studying to modelling. His mother would be furious if he decided to do modelling and not study and probably killed him and then forced him to attend university anyway. Sometimes she's just plain scary.
Anyway, his first real boyfriend was Lewis, still is and will be in the future. It's very simple, Lewis won't ever let him go away no matter what..

Likes:

Lewis, his boyfriend
Brufen, his turtle, though these two hate each other
baseball - very passionate fan of team RedFox
motorbike - he almost died 2 years ago during accident that was covered by his father and they hid it together from his mother
sport - swimming and jogging especially, squash when he has a partner, any kind of adrenaline sport
animals in general - especially something furry - cats and pandas

Dislikes:

cornflakes
violence - on kids or animals alike, well he can be called pacifist
injustice
searching for Brufen after his walk in the kitchen, he's able to get behind the fridge, little bastard
hospitals in general due to trauma in childhood
anyone looking at, touching or smiling at Lewis

Numbers:

age - 22
height - 1,80 m
weight - 70 kg

Family:

mother Lisa - very strict woman, not warm that much, always calling her son William not Will as his father
father Brian - calm and friendly man, bonsai lover, usually is taming his wife's fiery nature
cousin Emily - 17 years old girl, currently in relationship with young basketballist and they are very shy about it, not experienced too

So, these two, Lewis and William, are main characters of my universe :-) I am planning to write some goodness with them as main stars, though right now my schedule is quite tight. But I promise, I'll write about them :-)
Part 1 -> here

Dead bodies on the first floor

Fri, 18 Dec 2009 19:28:11 GMT

This week certainly was interesting.
I had gigantic luck at school with many tests and study cases, so I was successful with everything XD I was soooo happy, even the horrible test from yesterday ended well. But as I was packing my things to take train home, my Mum called me.
We live in some kind of apartment building with small flats, walls are thin and you can hear almost every word. Two floors down from my family lived another one, on the surface perfect one. And at night from Thursday to Friday the man shot her wife with the gun and then killed himself in front of their son. The son escaped through the balcony and called cops, but it was too late. When I got home later in the afternoon I saw him with bucket full of shards. He has to clean the mess...
Even now I'm shocked and sad and angry, because she was one of the kindest woman I have ever known. Beautiful, kind, charming, helping me with accounting and she died because her husband was too jealous to let her go somewhere alone. After many years she wanted the divorce, she even started to study on University in bigger city to get out of the golden cage he locked her in.
There was quarrel because everyone in the house heard it, but his gun had silencer so no one really knew there are dead people in the flat. At 5 a.m. criminalist knocked on our door to ask questions and Mum was distressed because they were friends with the murdered woman and after 8 a.m. two coffins were taken away.
Is it only me or do you too think the kind women are always the ones to be murdered or beaten by their husbands because of some nonsense?

Please, give at least few seconds of silence to the memory of woman, who died too soon...

Strange days

Fri, 30 Oct 2009 23:26:18 GMT

Well, most likely days which tend to overwork me. Or try it at least. Today's test in Legal Environment of a Business was pretty easy because I have been writing it with my classmates :) So I reached 100%, no mistakes. I was really very happy it was done because studying for this test ate up all of my time prepared for writing case study for Business Finance, which is terribly important in this subject. And because idiots in my Uni are thinking we have too much of a free time, they added another test in Statistics, which is scaring me to death.

It's completely fucked up. I'm tired, but still have to do my schoolwork, otherwise completing my bachelor degree would be almost impossible in time. And that's the thing I'm not willing to accept no matter what.

And as I'm sitting in my bed with my notebook trying to relax, my best friend had an urge to inform me how well is going her weekend out of my reach. Well, I tried to be sympathetic to her joy of learning about DDR, but it completely spoiled my mood. It's because we were looking at it together, thinking it can be fun and that was on cons and there were many people looking. I know, she doesn't like to act in front of people, so I didn't pressure her about it even though I thought we could try it together. And here, she's reporting me how wonderful it is, how much fun and that I have to try it too. Of course I'm still incredibly jealous person as usual, so I stabbed pretty strongly. I have to admit, she realized quickly, how harsh it sounded, but it didn't do anything to soothe my anger. My choleric nature is a bit too much sometimes, I guess. Still, it's mix of anger and sadness, 'cause this should have been our experience, not with someone else.

Anyway I had to get it out. Sorry for another babble about my private problems.

The Introductions, part 1

Sun, 18 Oct 2009 14:10:11 GMT

Hello,
this is beginning of my first attempt to write a fic. Please be gentle with me :)

Okay, I think the introductions of main characters would be good for a start, because they both are OC. Lewis Orwell is mine and William O´Darwen was created by ae_werin Thank you, darling, for him and for your suggestions while control-reading this piece:)

So, here we go XD

This man is a real king in Megalopole. His business is the biggest in the city, his name holds the real power, so when Lewis Orwell wants something no one in their right mind would try to deny him. It certainly would be their suicide.
Of course he had some competitors, but he left them behind him quite quickly, so his position is unassailable now. Well, you have to wonder what kind of business he is in.

Production and selling firearms. Rockets and bombs aren´t in offered assortment. Well, he dislikes them, so that´s the reason he doesn´t deal with them. There are others who deal with these things.
He isn´t fan of public places, there are only a few photos of him on the internet and they´re mostly from annual reports of his business. Though it´s shame because he would definitely have many fans because of his face and built.

Tall muscular figure, broad shoulders, ripped body. You could say sexy as hell and it wouldn´t be a mistake. It´s such a shame to keep it in secret under those layers of tailored suits. What he, absolutely fortunately, can´t hide is his face - chocolate eyes and dark hair. Always immaculate and in order except for mornings when he´s creased all over and disheveled. It´s rather cute to see him confused in these times.

His personality took really big transformation from times about eight years ago. He used to be a real punk, girls hanging off his arms and still able to hold a bottle of liquor. That was before he started taking cocaine in big amounts. It was a real miracle he survived those wild years. Well, he needed plastic operation of nasal septum because it just colapsed. Then came his absolutely best friend Markus and got him out of this shit. At that time, Lewis was already kicked out of his home by father, but still was in touch with his mom. Markus was his first real partner, but this type of relationship wasn´t really their thing. They care for each other even these days, like brothers but much closer.

Now, he´s able to keep his cool even in tense situation, his diplomacy got much better. His negotiating skills are the top, so no deal is lost before him. There is a limit to his patience of course because even now his anger is too much to handle easily when the line is crossed. No one would be clever to anger such a big man. Especially if you know about the time he was boxer. So he would definitely know how to punch.

Likes:

William, his boyfriend
sugar, even though you wouldn´t believe it
cakes with cream
good films, has huge collection of DVDs in his flat
coffee almost as much as his darling William
squash and swimming when he has some free time
cats and wolves

Dislikes:

William´s turtle. Well, he sees him as rival in fight for Will´s attention. It´s rather stupid to be jealous over turtle, but he´s really possessive man.
problems in general. They eat up his time to do much better things. Like lazying around and doing nothing. Or doing Will XD
orange marmalade. Ribesii marmalade is much better alternative.
anyone whose look at Will is "unpure"

Numbers:

age - 25
height - 1,85 m
weight - around 90 kg

Family:

mother Margareth - he loves her very much
step brother Matthew - was adopted by Margareth, is five years old boy but genius, already able to read and write, but still likes to draw or play with cars, decided to marry Emma, sweet girl he knows from the kindergarten. She looks like a Snow White.
father - the source of many problems in the family, lawyer
lover William - will be the theme of next part :)

Happy Day Meme 8 - The End

Fri, 02 Oct 2009 17:26:50 GMT

Okay, I know I haven´t posted when I should have, but I haven´t had time for it.
So, maybe I should write about things that made me happy, in those three days =)
On Wednesday, there was nothing. Like really nothing.
On Thursday, I was sitting on totally boring lesson from Direct Taxes, which interests me, but I was completely dead. A there was my former classmate from first semester (right now it´s our fifth one) and she looked at me a said: "Wow, you have longer hair than I remember. It looks good on you." I said I was just too lazy to visit my hairdresser, but she told me to keep it this way. So of course I was secretly very happy to receive a compliment like this one =)
On Friday, so today, I´m happy to be at home. And eat some good food, not just student diet XD

Well, it´s end of this meme. It certainly was very interesting experience and I enjoyed writing this even though I was late on some days. And I´m glad ae_werin included me in this =) Thanks honey :-*

Happy Day Meme 7

Tue, 29 Sep 2009 15:56:48 GMT

I thought today was very good day because I was very happy and satisfied, but now I'm pissed off. Mainly on myself which makes things worse. Well, I had to return my shoes to the shop because they broke. Fortunately, they gave me back my money for them so I could to buy a new pair of other shoes. I was successful, got even shopping groceries done and with this on my mind I got home. I was looking towards the evening, so I could share this with my best friend and chat about everything else when everything fucked up.

I knew, she will come, be online, but all I got was shitty note in mail about some girl, I have never heard of, like they are best friends because they are going to celebrate her birthday. Well, fuck the nice day so quickly.

I know I'm exaggerating, but I can't help myself. I know I like her too much, I know I'm jealous too much, but I also know I want her only for myself. This relationship is hurting me in these times too much for too long, because it's not first. She probably doesn't see it and I'm not willing to tell her. I would look like a cry baby and of course I don't want that. It's vicious circle, but I don't see a way to break it.

At least I have new pair of shoes and that's the thing that made me happy the last but one day of this meme =)

Happy Day Meme 6

Mon, 28 Sep 2009 22:00:41 GMT

So it´s already day six and nothing is new. Well, I´m able to breathe easily, so it´s very good, but my voice is still like having clip on my nose so it sounds quite funny XD And I can only wait for it to go away.

Today I had to take a train to get in my school town and there was big delay because of some other train from opposite direction so we had to wait about 45 minutes in one station. But paradoxically it made me happy. I was taking this train with my friend and we haven´t seen each other for quite a long time so this added time was very good. We decided to go to the pub this week and also ask some of our friends to go bowling or play pool together.

This was definitely my best delay XD

Happy Day Meme 5

Sun, 27 Sep 2009 21:58:43 GMT

Hello, so it's already 5th day. The time sure run very fast. I'm still ill, maybe a little better so I can say it's thing that made me happy today. At least I can breathe little bit more easily though it's not good enough yet =)

Well, I continued reading my book and I was laughing like a madwoman at some parts of story and my brother just asked me "You sure you alright?" I just blinked at him and said: "Why?" and he waved his hand at me like Omg, my sister is already that bad in her head! He certainly loves me, my younger brother XD

I'm glad he's at least funny. Sometimes XD

Yay for first film X-Men, because I´m watching it now =D

Happy Day Meme 4

Sat, 26 Sep 2009 22:07:42 GMT

Today was the same as yesterday. Nothing good to mention and still ill :-/ So I just continued reading my book and tried to write some of my RP debts but nothing good came to my mind. So it was complete failure.

So, I decided I´ll mention watching TV this evening. There is this local mutation of American Pop Idol and I fell in love with voice of one young man. He sounded like younger Tom Jones XD and his version of Supreme from Robbie Williams was perfect! www.youtube.com/watch

Well, that was probably only this one thing that made me happy today =)

Happy Day Meme 3

Fri, 25 Sep 2009 20:22:25 GMT

Today is really bad day. I´m ill, my nose is stuffed and throat is dry and head pounding. It´s hell. So finding something that made me happy was hard. But I found it!

I started reading that new book I bought XD And returned to my home. Well, I was almost dead by that point of time, but vision of proper meal was really really stimulating! XD *dreaming about meat and meat and meat XD*

Happy Day Meme 2

Thu, 24 Sep 2009 09:21:20 GMT

Well, I only remember one thing that made me happy today. This semester I started living in a new room. The family who own the house and live there too has terribly big dog. And I´m terrified by dogs. They scare me to death, so you can see I open the door very carefully and tiptoe in the house as quietly as I´m able to.
But today a big dog´s head poked from behind the door. I was just praying he doesn´t want to eat me or something but he merely sniffed me, decided I belong to his house and wanted to be petted. And he wanted good long petting and didn´t let me take my shoes off until he was satisfied. Well, he´s almost to my waist so some moving him aside is really impossible. And he´s still puppy XD

So I´m very happy I survived the first encounter with this dog alone =D

Happy Day Meme

Tue, 22 Sep 2009 18:33:35 GMT

Was tagged by ae_werin

1. Post about something that made you happy today even if it's just a small thing.
2. Do this everyday for eight days without fail.
3. Tag eight of your friends to do the same. I tag: 1on31y24, donnadio, f_mystic, portisheart, jessy_suki, kinziek, tsuki_te_suiren, nemesia23

Well, today was a second day of new semester. Right now I'm still pissed off as hell because of one little piece of shit, but today I bought a new book I already knew and love. And I watched X-Men Origins for about fifth time. Oooh, I love Hugh Jackman and his muscles and leather jacket XD

News XD

Sun, 06 Sep 2009 21:40:42 GMT

Hello everyone reading one of my babling sessions :D

It´s two days I have returned from my short vacation in Croatia. I was there for the first time and I love it there. Though the sun proved to be quite a problem because I´m not used to such a force. I wasn´t sunburned but it was too hot for my head. My brain must have been boiled! Fortunately, the damage wasn´t worse than original state, so no problems at least :D
Anyway I got nice tan, so I´m not as white as I was. Perfect, now I don´t look like a dead corpse XD

It´s two weeks until the start of new semestr at my Uni. I´m pretty nervous about it, my schedule is disaster and this year I´m to write my Bachelor thesis and that terrifies me completely. I know my supervisor very well so I´m sure she´ll help me when I´ll need it but still...it would be source of great stress.
Though I keep telling myself, that I´m quite good in writing in my mother language and the theme is something I wanna study further so it´s not hopeless :)

And finally - there is some thing I wanna talk about more. I´m thinking about writing a fiction. I´m a member of some kind of RP community in my country for almost 5 years and there is bunch of OC´s which I have many ideas for, but these ideas aren´t made for the original story I play with my friends. So I thought if it wouldn´t be bad to write about them, because they´re great characters and deserve more XD There is one pair I totaly love and maybe you would like them too? But I haven´t writen any fic yet, so I´m very insecure about it...my usuall RP partner told me "Your English is quite good and you write good smut. There are many worse authors and the´re still showing their work. Why not you?"
What do you think? Should I try?

Thanks for you time :)

What Do You Need Most?

Thu, 27 Aug 2009 23:23:21 GMT

You Need Freedom

You need to have full control of your life. You must make your own choices and decisions.
Your confidence and self-esteem comes from being independent. It's very important that no one tells you what to do.

You don't do well with rules, responsibilities, or commitment. You're not flaky, but you do need flexibility.
You may not always exercise your freedom, but you need to know it's there. Just feeling constrained constrains you.

What Do You Need Most?

Yes, yes, yes! That´s it! That´s the reason, why I fight with my mom when she tels me what to do, how and when. I hate it!

Click my babies!!!

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Thu, 27 Aug 2009 21:30:15 GMT

You Are a Maverick

You're a restless rebel with an unpredictable nature.
Bright but unbridled, you tend to seek out wild experiences over new ideas.
People are frustrated by your great potential, but you love your unconventional life.
You're a heartbreaker. People get attached to you, and then you're gone.

Your strength: Your thirst for adventure

Your weakness: Not taking time for slow pleasures

Your power color: Hot pink

Your power symbol: Figure eight

Your power month: March

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Broken

Sun, 09 Aug 2009 14:56:00 GMT

Did your parents ever made you feel like total shit on the face of Earth? My "parents" are best at this.

Have you ever felt like you had to do something really terrible in past life to deserve such a punishment? Yeah, I feel it too often.

I´m not some kind of stupid emo, I´m usually cheerful and happy person, but today I´m very disappointed in these people who call themselves parents. They don´t have right call themselves like this.

After quite a long time we argued. It started with normal discussion with my mother, but she (as usuall) twisted almost everything I said. When I tried to straighten it up, she called me a liar. Things got heated (as usuall when I don´t back down like some obedient dog) and I said there are thing that hurt me very much and her disbelieving attitude towards me is one of them. She doesn´t believe I even graduate my university though I´m not that bad to think like that (my grades are quite good) and there is only 1 year to go. Aren´t parents supposed to support their children and not to kick them in guts when they feel like it?

But, you know, this wasn´t first time to hear that, so it hadn´t hurt that much. I´m used to that, ´cos she says these things to me for three or four years already, so nothing new. But of course, my father (total hypocrite) had to side with her. He just digged more and more dirt and together they threw it in my face. Of course, my pc is to blame, ´cos I always sit with it, I always watch something japanese (they don´t know anything and they always judge) and other things.

My mistake was to tell them, how are they hurting me, how much it fucking hurts to hear all of this because I thought that maybe they will consider it and we can reach something like compromise or so and what do you think they did? They made me completely worthless and starting next semestr I have to pay for everything at school including food and rent for room, where I live in city with my Uni. They know very well I don´t have job to earn money or time for it because of too many subjects I´ll have to study to end school in time. Maybe, I should get some job for weekends and don´t even go home for those two days. It certainly would be more peaceful and less stressful.

I don´t understand this. I always was good student, my grades were good, I don´t know why are they acting like they hate me. Maybe it´s not acting but cold truth. Another interesting thing is, they are always yelling at me only when my brother isn´t at home though he isn´t kid (almost 18). I´m glad, he weren´t here during that, ´cos he is only one I care about in this shitty ilusion of family.

I just don´t know what have I done so horrible to deserve this. Maybe they just want to get rid of me like some puppy not obedient enough and this way is certainly more entertainig than just kicking me out. Then thay won´t have to explain my brother why they did that because I would be the one to pack my things and go away.

Yours, Lenka.

PS: thanks to those, who read this shit until the end. Thank you very much.

What Kind of Coffee Are You?

Thu, 21 May 2009 21:56:25 GMT

You Are a Black Coffee

At your best, you are: low maintenance, friendly, and adaptable

At your worst, you are: grumpy and stressed

You drink coffee when: you can get your hands on it

Your caffeine addiction level: high

What Kind of Coffee Are You?

Oh yeah, that´s me I have to agree completely =D

What Type of Beauty Are You?

Wed, 20 May 2009 14:32:00 GMT

You Are a Flawless Beauty!

When it comes to beauty, you spare no expense - and it shows
You're the kind of woman a man would launch a thousand ships for
It's hard for anyone to beat you in the beauty department
But remember, it's okay to show a flaw or too - you've got plenty to spare

What Type of Beauty Are You?

Omg, there must happened some kind of mistake =-O there´s no way I´m acting like flawless beauty, cos a I know very well that I have many not perfect areas on me, but it´s nice to read something like this once in a while =D

Mood themes

Wed, 06 May 2009 18:39:05 GMT

I need help!!!

Okay, I admit my defeat...this horrible evil setting is killing me!!! And I´m not kidding.

My situation is here -> I tried to make mood theme of Akihito or FeiLong...I uploaded pics on my account on one website and tried, if these pics are availible...of course, this was working very well. Then I tried to paste URL where I was supposed to in category of editing mood themes. Then, after all work, I saved changes and when I tried to acces this theme, I wasn´t working, ´cos system was saying "There are no pics".

Okay, there have to be some kind of mistake on my part, but I don´t know where so I could fix it...does anyone know what to do?

Thanks for advices *humbly bowing her head*

Quizzes =)

Wed, 06 May 2009 15:07:44 GMT

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Lets101 Quizzes - fun Myspace quiz

Curious meme!

Wed, 25 Mar 2009 20:42:21 GMT

Hello everyone,

there is special occasion and that´s why I´m posting this. natasja92 posted very interesting 33 questions. Even tough they aren´t hers own, it doesn´t matter to me, I´ll be good friend and answer them. She asked for it really nicely, you know :D Guys, I´m asking you to do the same for me. I´m curious as hell, so you´ll definitely satisfy me :D

1. Can you cook - yeah, some dishes are really yummy...the rest I haven´t tried yet
2. What was your dream growing up - oh, I wanted to be shopkeeper
3. What talent do you wish you had - I really wish to be able to play piano
4. Favourite place - my bed :D
5. Favourite vegetable - red and yellow pepper
6. What was the last book you read - Old man and the sea - still reading, it´s too boring for me, but my English teacher want us to read something in English..too bad good porn isn´t presentable enough
7. What zodiac sign are you - Gemini :)
8. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings - hell no, needlles are scaring me to death
9. Worst Habit - my fingers need to do something all the time
10. Do we know each other outside of lj - unfortunately no - different country
11. What is your favourite sport - I like swimming - hot men in speedos :drool:
12. Negative or Optimistic attitude - both :D mostly optimistic
13. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me - we could be debating about our favourite couples :D
14. Worst thing to ever happen to you - car accident - it´s still scaring me to drive with someone else, being the one with steering wheel in my hands is okay
15. Tell me one weird fact about you - there is one thing, some of my fingers are crooked :D it´ s not very obvious but it´s weird :D
16. Do you have any pets - once I would like to have a cat :-)
17. Do you know how to do the Macarena - yeah, lets rock! :D
18. What time is it where you are now - right now is 21:21 lucky you :D
19. Do you think clowns are cute or scary - definitely scary
20. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be - my ass could be firmer :D (excuse for too lazy nature)
21. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience - oh, crime partner is much cooler :D
22. What colour eyes do you have - blue
23. Ever been arrested - not yet and I´m not planning it
24. Bottle or Draft - draft
25. If you won $10,000 dollars today, what would you do with it - make good time with my friend and buy a new pair of jeans :D
26. What kind of bubble gum do you prefer to chew - something mentol - better breath :D
27. What 's your favourite bar to hang at - not really, I would rather go to drink coffee
28. Do you believe in ghosts - no, I would have to see one to believe in them
29. Favourite thing to do in your spare time - reading lots of porn :D
30. Do you swear a lot - sometimes a lot, especcialy when I´m very angry - not controlling vocabulary
31. Biggest pet peeve - stupid people are making me mad
32. In one word, how would you describe yourself - friendly
33. Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you - of course!

Go and copy questions here ---> </span>natasja92.livejournal.com/12187.html and answer them for me and for her too, thanks!

Results and other stuff =)

Wed, 25 Feb 2009 17:38:53 GMT

Hello everyone,

first thing of my journal will be about that difficult situation of mine %)

I have to thank to jessy suki and tigermalt. You are my saviors, no kidding. I took your advices and acted. It was hard, it is very un-normal these days, but it helped. We sat, we talked and that was it. Just end.

The flat isn´t that big so he can avoid me for real, but I can see it in the way we greet each other. I´m not sure others noticed it too, but I´m not digging in it. He barely says "Good morning" when we meet in the kitchen. I admit, it feels very good to be without unwanted attention, but it makes me quit sad because it feels like lost friend. Maybe it´s not just feeling, ´cos it´s reality.
Am I ungrateful when I want us to be friends just like we used to be? I understand, it´s hard for him, but that´s the way I am. Every one of my almost lovers is now my friend. It´s like those intimate moments between us were for good. We understand each other and are close friends. It´s dangerous, because some times are quit heated and there is the need to repeat things that were starters of our relationship, hehe =D but we want it this way, so it´s okay =)
I hope, one day he will be able to talk to me like we used to. I would like that very much, ´cos I think it´s too troublesome to pretend something, to avoid other´s eyes, to act like the other isn ´t in the room. I don´t like that, it´s too complicated.

Anyway, summer semestr begun 2 weeks ago and I ´m already tired. I must be really soft, that´s horrible =D I´m skipping some classes, because I´m trying to sleep more but it just doesn´t work, ugrrrr. There are also some assignments for school I need to work on and it takes my free time which irritates me. I just need my free time only for me, it´s normal, isn´t it? And what´s the worst, I´m terribly lazy from nature. If my death sin wasn´t wrath, it surely would be sloth. There is nothing like conscience in me, so I don´t care about it. That really cynical side of me must be very hard to stand for others. Even my mother told me I´m too heartless, almost cruel. That hurt, you can imagine, hearing this from own mother...very unpleasant. There are many things my parents don´t get right about me. This is one of them. And it makes me feel lonely.

Enough of depressing stuff, there is one thing I would like to know. I have some mood theme I would like to use. It´s not my own. Is there some way to use it without need to make mood theme by "creating" it in profile? =) I reeeeeeally want to use mood theme with Feilong (love his hair and face) but I need to know, if there is some shortcut =D

Be well friends, Lenka

Asking for advice

Sun, 15 Feb 2009 18:42:08 GMT

Hello everyone, who is reading my journal =)
Yesterday was Valentine day and it brought my mind to a little problem once again. And I would like to know your advice, because I honestly don´t know what to do.
So the situation is following : I´m university student, who lives with fellow students in a flat. There are totally eight people including me. We are all friends and everything was fine until one of guys started to seeking me out more than was appropriate. At first, I thought he just wanted to be more friendly and paid no mind to it, but it was suddenly a bit uncomfortable all that attention. I started to be more cold and kept it only in "just friend" category but it didn´t help. He asked for a date and I refused. But...as you can think, he just kept asking and asking. Fortunately I always said no, but I think he still didn´t get it. And I don´t know, what to do. I still hope, it will solve because I don´t want to go away, but hiding in my room and triing to avoid him is very unpleasant for me.

So if you have some kind of idea or advice, please tell me.

Hoping for help, Lenka

FIRST =)

Fri, 06 Feb 2009 16:03:39 GMT

Hello everyone, who is reading my first journal here on LJ =)

Yeah, I know, I was here for some time and still nothing. I´m ashamed of myself, really =) But I have the reason to write here now and it´s because of my new friends on LJ. It took me some time, but now I can say I feel good here. Of course I was just member of few communities because of yaoi (I´m very passionate in this department =D ) but now having friends is much better, so thanks to them =) Check their profils and work, they are amazing ;-)

I´m feeling obligatory to write something about me =) Hope you don´t mind =)

My language isn´t English, I´m sure you noticed some mistakes even though I´m doing my current best.

I ´m university student - Faculty of Bussiness and Economics in MZLU in Brno Czech Republic, second year of Economic policy and administration. It sounds pretty cool, doesn´t it? =D I have to say, this semestr was really hard on me and I was exhausted after all exams in January. Even though this university doesn´t look like it, it´s fucking hard to stay in. And on Monday I´ll start next semestr. Still I´m looking forward to it =)

My interests are quite easy to understand - music, books, anime and manga, yaoi. Yes, this horrible disease called yaoi infected me strongly and I´m addicted. There is not even one day without some good porn with my favourite pairings =D God, I have to grow out of it =D
My most favourite pairings are Sasuke and Naruto (doesn´t matter SasuNaru or NaruSasu I take it all), Asami and Akihito (sometimes with Feilong), Aya/Ran and Yohji or Schuldig, Kakashi and Iruka, Hijikata and Gintoki or Yamazaki and that´s pretty much everything =)
From anime, I like Naruto, Bleach, Death note, Code Geass was pretty good, Weiss Kreuz (but not ending of Gluhen =/ ), FMA, Princess Tutu was as wonderfull as Gungrave and many others. Sometimes I feel like a freak, but I have my best friend who is the same as me so I´m not lonely =)

There is one thing I have to turn myself in because of. I uploaded some avatars but except for the first one, they are work of someone else. I feel bad, because they are beautiful and I forgot to remember or write down nicks of makers. I´m very sorry... I think all of them are from members of some icon community. Their work captivated me, please, remember I have ment no harm by this stupid step.

Oh, I ´m surprised, this journal is this long =O But it was quite nice to write. New friends are welcomed =)
Soooo, until next time, be well =)
Lenka